*Cool Vibes and Candle Making*

The last weekend of June I got out of the house and spent time with some ladies I could relate to. We talked, laughed, cried, and share memories and moments from our moms. All the while making some amazing candles (my fav) and journals. I also created some self care goodie bags for the ladies. It was some cool vibes I plan to start journaling again. I was so impressed with the vulnerability that everyone shared that day. It was so incredible even me with my very much introverted self lol. Hopefully, we can do it again next year.

*I Can’t Stand a Broke/Lazy Man

I just realized one of the things that absolutely disgust me is a broke/lazy man. I know of a guy that doesn’t do anything but stay home and be lazy. Stays on the phone and does absolutely nothing. I think 🤔 that is no way to live, especially for a man who was taught to go out and concur the world. And for a man that doesn’t do anything but stays in the house and on the phone with no goals is beyond ridiculous. I hope no woman ever gives this type of guy any time. Let these type of man go extinct. Don’t procreate with them or give them your time. Period!

~I’m Only Looking for a Provider Husband~

I literally had a dream last month that someone proposed to me. And I remember in that dream everyone was all up on me try to see the ring. That part was a little annoying but I do one day want to get married. And now the more I stay in this city I’m started to feel like I will never find love here. Not the type of relationship I want. I know for a fact that I want a provider. Although, I can take care of myself and I have for many years. I don’t want to have that pressure after I get married. I want to be more of the nurturer than anything else. And seeing how men are natural providers, and make more than most women. I can’t let that thought go especially since I’ve been taking care of myself for decades. All the women I have come across in my life that were provided for always looked more happy. This one lady I used to work with only got a job because she needed something to do when her daughters moved out the house. And I remember how she use to talk about the amazing things her husband did for her. It just made me so happy for her. She really had a great spouse that always looked out for her. The type of women I am I deserve that too. I didn’t want that when I was younger…I wanted to be super independent. And now I realized that was not the life for me. I just want to rest in my femininity, and not worry about the hustle bustle culture. And once that gets done I will feel complete. I will not lower this standard for no man. I will keep my standards high! Providers only, hypergamy only!

I Understand What He Meant Now

I remember when I first started working at my job. There was a guy close to my age that was totally burnt out. I remember seeing him following asleep at his desk, coming in later, and just feeling unmotivated. He told me how when he started they promised him all of these things that he didn’t get. He later switched departments and then completely quit the job. Although, I remember him him vaguely, I now understand him completely. I understand why he quit and all the silly games these jobs play. It can effect you mentally, emotionally, financially, spiritually, and even physically. I keep speaking on the rat race because I want it to be known. I want people to escape and feel free. I want there to be a change in the dynamic that corporations have on human beings. Something has to be done about this because we are all tired of the silly games. We are all tired of the many lies told the bias and 

discriminations that flood these places called jobs. It’s ridiculous if you really think about it. Now, I 100% understand what this old co-worker was feeling and why he quit. You have to put yourself first. Happiness should be your number 1 priority. And although I haven’t quit yet. I can feel it coming soon. My peace is important to me!

I’m sick of the Rat Race

I’m so sick of the rate race, Corporate America, 9-5 you name it. It’s a game that not fun at all. It will run you dry and can potentially cause health problem and anxiety. I remember when my last supervisor left my team. I remember asking her why she was leaving because she was so sweet and smart. And she told me “I’m moving on to better things.” I think that is how we should all view this life. Move on to bigger things to get away from the rat race. It’s honestly not worth it until you really love your job and they are treating you right. Our whole life we have been indoctrinated with: go to school, get good grades, graduate and go to college, get in debt, and work to pay it off and retire at age 65+. I’m not here for that dream…I actually want my own dream. My dream doesn’t require me working a 9-5, it more like traveling and exploring the world. Meeting new people and working my own business as an entrepreneur. It’s more about me being my authentic self and exploring luxuries and trying new restaurants. These weekends are not enough, these vacations are not enough, and these sick days/holidays are not enough. 

Time is the most valuable thing I believe we have in life. The material things we can’t take with us. The time we spend with loved ones and friends are important to me. This is the reason why budgeting is good to me so I can assure I have enough funds to quit one day. I’m already debt free which is another plus…they don’t expect you to value yourself enough to get to this point. I always dream of quit I feel the day is gonna come soon. I will update will that beautiful day happens….so much stress from work today made me write this post. Hopefully, it resonated with someone because I really felt this in my spirit. ❤️ 

The Friendships I’m Attracting in 2022

The friendships I’m attracting in 2022 and beyond are going to be intentional. I’m so tired of settling for so called friendship with people because I’ve known them for X amount of years. Another thing I’m attracting with my future friends is dope conversations. Like no more celebrity gossip talk, no more telling peoples business, no more trashing your ex’s that you chose in the first place. I want and need meaningful conversations about: leveling up, building and sustaining confidence, healthy romantic relationships, getting fit, healthy eating, financial freedom, books we are reading or have read, and of course other girly things. I’m to the point I literally can say I don’t have any real true genuine friends. I look at my phone and think dang I can’t call anybody. I spoke about feeling alone on another post before. However, now it’s different without my mom and lack luster friendships. And more of my family I can’t vibe with like that. I guess this is the way of life. I haven’t had some good friends since I was younger meaning middle school and younger. I guess after the dating ages you can kiss 😘 genuine friendship goodbye. I’m learning and growing through this faze but I know what I’m attracting and I will stay focused on that. ✌️ 

My Love for 2022

I think I’m going to love 2022. I rang in the New Year by myself at home. However, this morning I cleaned my home and started to write down and manifest what I wanted out of this year. Time really don’t wait for no one! So, I have to make these moves and stick to them. I had a rocky 2021 so I’m looking forward to what 2022 has to offer.