I Understand What He Meant Now

I remember when I first started working at my job. There was a guy close to my age that was totally burnt out. I remember seeing him following asleep at his desk, coming in later, and just feeling unmotivated. He told me how when he started they promised him all of these things that he didn’t get. He later switched departments and then completely quit the job. Although, I remember him him vaguely, I now understand him completely. I understand why he quit and all the silly games these jobs play. It can effect you mentally, emotionally, financially, spiritually, and even physically. I keep speaking on the rat race because I want it to be known. I want people to escape and feel free. I want there to be a change in the dynamic that corporations have on human beings. Something has to be done about this because we are all tired of the silly games. We are all tired of the many lies told the bias and 

discriminations that flood these places called jobs. It’s ridiculous if you really think about it. Now, I 100% understand what this old co-worker was feeling and why he quit. You have to put yourself first. Happiness should be your number 1 priority. And although I haven’t quit yet. I can feel it coming soon. My peace is important to me!

I’m sick of the Rat Race

I’m so sick of the rate race, Corporate America, 9-5 you name it. It’s a game that not fun at all. It will run you dry and can potentially cause health problem and anxiety. I remember when my last supervisor left my team. I remember asking her why she was leaving because she was so sweet and smart. And she told me “I’m moving on to better things.” I think that is how we should all view this life. Move on to bigger things to get away from the rat race. It’s honestly not worth it until you really love your job and they are treating you right. Our whole life we have been indoctrinated with: go to school, get good grades, graduate and go to college, get in debt, and work to pay it off and retire at age 65+. I’m not here for that dream…I actually want my own dream. My dream doesn’t require me working a 9-5, it more like traveling and exploring the world. Meeting new people and working my own business as an entrepreneur. It’s more about me being my authentic self and exploring luxuries and trying new restaurants. These weekends are not enough, these vacations are not enough, and these sick days/holidays are not enough. 

Time is the most valuable thing I believe we have in life. The material things we can’t take with us. The time we spend with loved ones and friends are important to me. This is the reason why budgeting is good to me so I can assure I have enough funds to quit one day. I’m already debt free which is another plus…they don’t expect you to value yourself enough to get to this point. I always dream of quit I feel the day is gonna come soon. I will update will that beautiful day happens….so much stress from work today made me write this post. Hopefully, it resonated with someone because I really felt this in my spirit. ❤️ 

The Friendships I’m Attracting in 2022

The friendships I’m attracting in 2022 and beyond are going to be intentional. I’m so tired of settling for so called friendship with people because I’ve known them for X amount of years. Another thing I’m attracting with my future friends is dope conversations. Like no more celebrity gossip talk, no more telling peoples business, no more trashing your ex’s that you chose in the first place. I want and need meaningful conversations about: leveling up, building and sustaining confidence, healthy romantic relationships, getting fit, healthy eating, financial freedom, books we are reading or have read, and of course other girly things. I’m to the point I literally can say I don’t have any real true genuine friends. I look at my phone and think dang I can’t call anybody. I spoke about feeling alone on another post before. However, now it’s different without my mom and lack luster friendships. And more of my family I can’t vibe with like that. I guess this is the way of life. I haven’t had some good friends since I was younger meaning middle school and younger. I guess after the dating ages you can kiss 😘 genuine friendship goodbye. I’m learning and growing through this faze but I know what I’m attracting and I will stay focused on that. ✌️ 

My Love for 2022

I think I’m going to love 2022. I rang in the New Year by myself at home. However, this morning I cleaned my home and started to write down and manifest what I wanted out of this year. Time really don’t wait for no one! So, I have to make these moves and stick to them. I had a rocky 2021 so I’m looking forward to what 2022 has to offer.

I’m Going to Miss You Ma’am

R.I.P Mom

No one thinks of losing their mom at such an early age. However, this is life and the worst things can sometimes happen to the best of us. I know she is smiling down and looking after me. As I try to adjust to this new normal. This happened at the end of last month and it’s still unbelievable. I know with time it will get better but life will never be the same. I buried her with a crown because she was royalty. That’s what she would always say to me. That I was royalty, while this whole time she was royalty.

That Damn Don Julio Made Me A Fool for You

I just watched a YouTuber who said on her recent video “That damn Don Julio made me a fool for you.” I couldn’t wait to elaborate and speak on this topic because that statement was so real. And I could relate 100%.

I feel as a woman we let man get the most for doing the least. What do I mean by doing the least…..buying us a drink, giving minimum attention, wack bedroom activities, and small purchases. I’ve seen some women get so worked up for a guy that ain’t never do ish for them but give wack ****. And they end up as a broke busted single mom. Their lives begins to crumble meanwhile that dude is moving on to the next chic. Yeah, this post is not going to be sugarcoated and sweet it’s going to be straight raw. I’m just so tired of seeing the same things going on, and women being foolish to these dusty males.

I feel “us” women need to start putting our foot 🦶 down and demanding respect. That starts with getting your confidence levels up and avoiding these grown boys. My mom once told me that one of her friends use to put her bills on her fridge. And when a guy would try to date her she would ask them “which bill are you going to pay?” sounds like a woman who knew her time was worth something. And I’m not saying everything revolves around money either. I’m saying that is what worked for her….everybody’s something is going to be a little different. Like Denzel Washington’s wife made him propose multiple times because he didn’t do it right. Another business owner I met said his wife told him before they were married if he wanted to continue talking to her, he had to get her car out the shop. He told me he did and they have been inseparable. He said he would pick his wife over his mom and kids. Those are just some examples of women who knew their worth. 

Now, don’t get me wrong we will all go through our Don Julio fool stages. However, it’s about moving on to bigger and better things. Not allowing yourself to get there ever again. It’s a battle of not letting the small things excite you. Especially, when you know you got that designer 🐱 (S/O to Summer Walker). All I am saying is put the highest value on yourself, and it’s levels to it. You are the only one who can determine your level. You should be a woman of worth command what you want….a 💍, a commitment, bills paid, what is it? Let’s stop following for the games it’s about to be 2022. Let the dusty ones go and level up, it’s time sis! 

*Taking myself on a date*

Yesterday, I took myself on a date! Self-care and self-love requires spending quality time with yourself.