Monday, May 21, 2012

~It Begins with Baby Steps~

I sent out my application for the MISS BLACK OHIO 2013 pageant a few weeks ago. And I just got the great news yesterday that I was accepted!!!! I am so excited. I know it's going to be a lot of work, but I am up for the challenge. I made it a goal for myself to accomplish something major every year. This pageant is my major 2012 goal for myself.

It all started with me making a decision first. I decided to do this pageant sometime last year, and I wrote it down on my goal list. You know I keep a goal list....and you should too. Next, I search for information on the pageant and got an application form and completed it. Now I can say I'm in the running to compete. I know these next couple of months are going to be ridiculously busy. Well I hope it is because I am up for the challenge. I took my 1st baby step and now I have grown into a toddler in the process. I can't wait to experience the highs, the lows, and all that is in-between. Also, if you would like to sponsor me let me know. Any assistance would be greatly appreciated. I will keep updating you all on my until next time folks :)

Friday, May 18, 2012

~May Monthly Motivation~

"It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are." -E.E. Cummings

Monday, May 14, 2012

~Happy Appeciation Day~

I hope everyone is having a wonderful Appreciation Day! If you don't know what this day mean to me and my family click here. Although our Appreciation Day is today we decided to celebrate it on Mother's Day this year. I had so much fun catching up with family, plenty of smiles, hugs, and love. I hope today you take some time and tell at least one person why you appreciate them! I will go 1st.... I appreciate you for reading my blog. Have a wonderful and blessed day :)

Thursday, May 10, 2012

~Say What!!!~ 

Have you ever been lied to? Not just some old regular lie, I mean a good ole exaggerated lie. One that made you respond with "Say What" Well I just had that experience this past weekend. I was eating lies like inmates devour their last meal. So good that I fell into the trap....and you think those stories on "MAURY" are fake. He feed me lies so sweet, I could of been the 1st story that aired come Monday morning. Because as we all know, the first story is the best one! It's the one that makes everybody's mouths drop. Well, my mouth was not only dropping, it was "pop, lock, and dropping." He feed me lies for one full month to be exact.

The best thing about being a woman is having a woman's intuition. I know a lot of women try to ignore signs to protect their hearts. I'm so the opposite though, I question everything like Inspector Gadget. Now mind you he never once tired to come clean....all the answers to my questions turned into bigger lies. He even tried to turn things around on me to make me seem psycho.

Thank God I have older friends that I could confide in for advice. I was told what to do to hear the truth and it worked. Sometimes you have to lie to hear the truth, and that is exactly what I did. I pretend to know actress that should of won an Oscar. I couldn't let my emotions and feelings show after secrets one, two, and three were revealed. I had to make him feel safe and comfortable telling me the truth, which meant hiding the pain and rage. After he departed, I had my festival of tears mixed with pain prepared well done. I kept to reminding myself "time heals everything."  

I must say that even though he lied we are still good friends. He apologized and I accepted his apology. I told him we will take this day-by-day.  That's the good thing about it though...we still can remain friends after all the after-math. Most people told me they couldn't do it, I can though because I've learned to take relationships for what they are to me. Not all stories have happy endings, unless you're reading a fairytale anyways. 

And I know I didn't reveal the secrets...this is a public blog after all. I'm gonna start writing about relationship to my blog now. I haven't been in a lot of relationship but I have plenty of stories. I will mix past with present, hopefully you guys will enjoy those. And if you read "Sweet Lies" this post is the post related to it. Poetry & writing helps me get through so much....I love writing :)


Monday, May 7, 2012

~Sweet Lies~

Feed me, not something bitter, 
but something sweet
 feed me what I've been yearning for,
 give me a full cup,
 a full cup of lies
 let me envision false fantasies,
 yes, feed me a dream I cannot have, 
shower me with unrealistic notes of love,
 make me smile with false promises,
 feed me a vision of fake fairy tales,
 fill me up with faux hopes, keep feeding me lies,
 so when I look into your eyes, I cannot distinguish the truth
 feed me a full cup 
yes, feed me I'm hungry!
 your lies are what I'm craving,
 feed me until I'm full 
lie to me boy....
and hopefully your lies taste good